I Made My Goal On Time!

I did it! That’s right. I reached my goal by Elias’s birthday! 325 On his birthday. And unfortunately, im still holding there. I went for a fill about a week ago. My surgeon thought that this might do the trick for me. Unfortunately, I think he was wrong. I still feel like I can eat whatever I want and as much as I want. I now have 8.4cc in my 11cc band. I think that’s a lot! He assured me though that theres no way I would be filled all the way. I hope he is right. Because in all honesty, im worried about it! He also said I was right on target where he thought I should be. I feel like im not. I need to stay off of the scale but its hard. All my clothes are big. I can see the change in pictures. But the number is throwing me off. Im down 52 pounds. That’s amazing! But Im still fat. I knew the process was going to be slow. But now its slowing down a lot. Im working my butt off. I can see how my abilities have changed losing this 50 pounds. I can do a lot more than I could before surgery.


I got new shoes today. I wore through my old sneakers within a month. I guess that’s what I get for buying cheap shoes. Its all the walking ive been doing I suppose. I bought a pair of those shape up type shoes. They are pretty cool. I can’t wait until the rain stops so I can try them out. They feel strange at first but they aren’t hard to walk in. I hope that will help me step up my walking a bit more. I also bought a pair of running shoes for every day wearing. Im hoping the extra support in the heal will help me not wear through them as quickly. Today I also went over and checked out the other gym on post. Anderson Field House sucks. When I went there, I felt like it was itty bitty and it was just really uncomfortable. Like the people who were there were staring at me or something. So today I went and checked out McClellan Fitness Center. That place is much nicer! It has a bigger area for treadmills, elliptical and those kind of machines. It also has a weight room, a rock climbing wall, and they offer a couple classes during the week. I peaked in on the Tae Bo class and OMG I don’t think I’m ready to keep up with them yet that’s for sure! I need some kind of class that’s just for fat people who can only work out for 30 minutes or so at a time. Does something like that exist in our area? Im not sure.


Not much more of an updated except for a few new clothing fits ive made. I was able to get into my wedding dress from 8+ years ago! It was snug on the top which I expected. I had no boobs before Elias came along! I remember when they were doing my fitting that they had to take it in quite a bit. Now being a mom, I have boobs! But my dress went on and zipped up! I felt amazing! I got out my winter coat yesterday to see how that fit. I did it because I was in the store the other day and looked at a couple jackets. Our of curiosity I tried one on and the size I tried, fit! So I put on my old coat and its huge! Im definitely going to be in the market for a new one this winter. And its going to be exciting because I will be able to shop at a lot of stores for one instead of settling on just the one that fits. Also, aunt had given my mom some clothes that someone had given her. I had looked through them and there wasn’t much I liked. There was this one outfit that looked cute. It was jeans and a jean jacket. I tried on the jacket then and I couldn’t even get it over one arm to put on. Today, I tried the jacket on and it fit perfectly! It’s a size 18/20. Definitely encouraging! Also some of the long sleeve shirts that I got when we did a clothing exchange at my weight loss support group fit now! Even if the scale tells me im fat, im fitting into smaller clothes and looking better every day. I need to focus more on that and be proud of myself for my accomplishments!