The Little Things

Every little accomplishment gets me so excited. I don't have much to blog about today except for this one little thing.

So I have been looking around for some new jeans since my pants fell off getting out of the car. But being summer, its been hard! Well, yesterday Sean and I hit up the pool at the YMCA after a little workout. Ummm my bathing suit is getting too big, especially on top. I went under the water and had to hold onto it as I came up LOL! So, I suppose its time to start looking for a new one. Fat person + bathing suit shopping = a nightmare! I actually really like the bathing suit I have so it sucks to be on the lookout for a new one.

So, I had this game stop gift card I wanted to spend so I went over to the mall. By the way, I bought Jillian Michaels Fitness Ultimatum 2010. That should kick my butt here at home a bit. Anyway, I decided to venture over to JC Penneys to check out their bathing suits. Of course, I cant just look at that. I have to look around at everything. I came across these $40 jeans that were on sale for $15. Hmmmm tempting price. I look at the sizes and realize they only go up to 24. Yeah thats big, but im bigger... or so I thought. I started at a size 30 jean! I kind of skipped a bit through the 28s and have found myself in a 26. For $15 though, maybe I can garb the 24s and be in them in a couple weeks.

So, I picked them up and headed to the fitting room. I sware it was lik ewalking to my death or something. Knowing that I am going to go in there and be disappointed, even though I picked them up off the rack knowing they were a size smaller than I was wearing. So, I put one leg in... ok... next leg... ok... over my big bugg.. wow ok they go up. Button... zip... They are on! Holy crap! Did I seriously just fit into a 24? I totally did. So I march my happy self to the check out counter and buy myself a new pair of jeans! I am tempted to go back and get a 22 just to have hanging around for when the time comes. But, its so much more fun to go shopping and have that element of surprise when the next size fits. So yay for my little accomplishment for the day!

40 Pound Mark!!

Well, I can officially say that since starting this journey, I have lost 40 pounds!! That of course does include my 9 days of pre-op diet. Today I weighed 337.

Since my last blog, my weight had been going up and down and up and down. So there wasn't really much to update on. It was quiet disappointing, but I knew that was how it was going to be. My surgeon told me that is very typical for someone who needs a fill. After all, there has been nothing in my band.

Tuesday I went for my first fill. I now have 5cc in my 11cc band. My surgeon told me that he can usually tell if someone is going to come close to filling their band before they find their "sweet spot" based on how much they have lost at the first fill. He told me he doesn't expect me to come close. That is a great thing to hear!

The whole fill process didn't worry me, but I did experience a slight scare. Im not afraid of needles in the least bit, and seeing my internal organs or bones doesnt bother me at all. So, I stand in this half circle type machine that is basically an x-ray machine. It shows my stomach and the band around it, and also the port. He took a small needle with numbing stuff and numbed my port area. It was just slightly uncomfortable. Just like a bee sting but went away very quickly. After that, he took a larger needle (which I didnt watch or even feel) and injected the stuff into the port. It went perfectly into my band.

Now, for the scary part. Im not good when it comes to eating/drinking things that are just nasty. During the fill, I had to take sips of barium to make sure that it went through the opening of the band perfectly. Well, I took one sip. Nasty!!! I said ok I can do this maybe one more time. He knew that I wasn't good with this kind of stuff. Well, after the 3rd sip of it, my body started acting crazy. My esophagus started spasming and I of course was gagging because of the taste. Instead of making me drink anymore he just had me keep swallowing. That was fine. But my body hated it so much that I started shaking, and felt like I was going to pass out. The procedure itself only took maybe 5 minutes or so. They saw how pale I had turned and got me sitting down. I put a cool rag on the back of my neck and sat there for about 3 or 4 minutes. My color started to come back, the nasty taste was getting out of my mouth, and I was alright. It was just really scary. At least now I know how my body is going to react to barium. Its just one of those things I guess. They told me I wasn't the first person that has experienced that. And that next time, they will put a cool rag on my neck from the beginning. Im not very worried about it because I know its nothing that is wrong with my band, or any kind of allergic reaction. Its just me and my darn gagging.

So, since Tuesday ive been on a liquid diet again. It hasn't been bad at all. Im full just like I was at the beginning of surgery. The only difference is now I dont have gas, and I know what real hunger pains feel like. Tonight I can start on mushy foods. That will continue tomorrow as well. On Monday I can go back to normal foods. Not all surgeons have you go liquid, mushy, solids after a fill, but I think its a good thing and im ok that my dr has me doing that.

I havent posted any pictures, and I think its about time (that is, if I can figure out how to on here!). Ive had 2 accomplishments lately. The first, I was able to get into my Jr. Prom dress! Jr Prom was 10 years ago! So that definately felt great! It made me realize how big my boobs have gotten though LOL!!! I know thats thanks to having a kid. They never went away. So the dress fit differently. I tried on my wedding dress and could only get that zipped half way up because of the boob issue too. I had to have my wedding gown taken in quiet a bit on top. My most exciting accomplishment came today. I had a pair of camo pants that I bought 4 years ago. I wans't able to stay in them for long. I think I wore them once, maybe twice before I just couldnt squeeze into them anymore. I tried them on before surgery, and couldnt get them over my big butt. So these jeans have really been my first goal pants. And today, they are up, zipped, buttoned, and comfortable!!!

My next weight goal is 325. I would love to be able to get there by our 8th wedding anniversary next month. Its a big task but im hopeful. I was 325 when I gave birth to Elias nearly 7 years ago.