Out Of The 20s

Finally! Im out of the 320s. I hope my weight continues to go down. I was stuck there for a very long time. But this morning when I weighed myself, I was at 319. Ive been really focusing lately about my eating. I was getting lazy again and just making whatever I can find for dinner and also eating things I knew I shouldn’t. When I was hungry I would just find whatever was easy to make. My main snack focus lately has been pistachios. It takes some time to get into them which makes me eat less. And ive also been listening to my body more when it says to stop eating that its full. By doing this, ive seen weight loss. Ive also realized how important it is to stay hydrated. People say that all the time. I often forget to drink during the day until I get really dehydrated and then drink a whole gallon of something. I get really thirst or maybe some of it is in my head when im out and about at stores. Instead of grabbing the Sobe, I grab a diet soda. I really want the regular soda because it does taste better, but I remember how much better it is for me to get the diet so I do. This posting is pretty much just a random here there and everywhere post. Im just excited to finally be out of the 20s and hopefully not go back. Next goal is just 2 more pounds at 317. That will put me at 60 pounds gone. 2 more pounds after that puts me at the weight I was at when I got pregnant with Elias. Little goals are much more achievable than big ones. Im not sure what the next one will be. Maybe 306 since that’s 100 pounds away from my goal weight. Wow, I cant believe im close to that 100 pound away goal. Blows my mind.

Well Dont Think I Will Make Goal

Only 1 week until my bandiversary. Hard to believe its been a whole year. I really wanted to lose a much larger number. But with the miscarriage, well what can I do. Ive been stuck a bit since my last blog posting. I guess I had lost so much so quickly my body was like wait a minute. But I didn’t give up and I kept pressing on through it. Today im at 323. Yay my lowest! To meet my goal of 317 on the 29th seems impossible and pretty much unhealthy. That would be 1 pound a day. This weekend will be a challenge. We are spending it in Washington DC which means lots of eating out. Im hoping I can control my carbs. I know going to Georgetown Cupcake wont help at all. But with the walking we will do, if I can control it hopefully I will have a successful week and at least loose 2 or 3 pounds. On another note, im definitely in a size 22. I went shopping for some shorts and didn’t really find any. One thing I got excited about was that I was able to squeeze (and I do mean squeeze) into a size 20 jean shorts! It gives me hope.

6 Pounds, 10 Days

So things are still going good. Im working by butt off and it shows on the scale. Down to 326 this morning! 1 more pound to go to get back to where I was. Maybe ill hi that goal after all. My clothes are starting to get big again. I wish old man winter would go away. I dont want to buy any more jeans. Summer will be here soon and that means shorts and capris. I might have to invest in a belt though to get me through lol

6 Months Later...

And here we are nearly 6 months later. I haven’t forgotten about this blog but to be completely honest, I was too depressed to write anything. Not long after my last blog, I found out I was pregnant. We were really surprised. It wasn’t a really planned thing but of course we weren’t preventing it either. Unfortunately, I had yet another miscarriage.

At first things looked like they were going ok. My levels were going up like they should. Then I started bleeding. My levels went down and it was assumed I was miscarrying. I was hoping that my body would take care of things naturally like the last time but unfortunately that didn’t happen. My levels instead of continuing to drop, started to rise. It was not a steady rise and definitely not high enough to indicate a viable pregnancy. My doctors were really confused. They didn’t see anything in my tubes or anywhere it shouldn’t have been. They saw nothing. But what the heck would cause my levels to rise as if I was still pregnant? Finally my doctor decided that since they didn’t know what was going on, I needed to have a D&C. I went in for the procedure the day before Thanksgiving. It was very emotional for me. After the procedure, I continued to have to do blood work and doctor follow-ups all the time. It really wore me out. I felt like a human pin cushion.

I gained a lot of weight back because of my hormones being out of control. My doctor told me not to stress about it but of course I did. How could I not? My body was in control and I wasn’t. I definitely didn’t like that feeling one bit. So here we are in March, and I have finally been cleared by my doctor to pick up where I left off in my weight loss. 2 weeks ago I went in for a much needed band adjustment. I was trying to stay off the scale because I knew I had gained a ton. I about cried when I stepped on the scale and it said 340. That’s 15 pounds I gained back since September. My surgeon totally understood and was sympathetic with the situation that had happened and also reassured me that it wasn’t my fault. So on March 2nd I got my adjustment. Tonight, 15 days since my adjustment, I am down to 332. 8 pounds in 2 weeks. I shouldn’t complain right? Its just so hard. I stick to the foods I know I should eat as best as I can. Perhaps that’s why I really have lost so much. But im definitely not where I want to be right now. I cant wait to get back to that 325 so I can pick up where I left off.

I have huge goals for the coming months. By April 29th I want to be at 317. That’s 15 pounds to lose in 43 days. So about 2-3 pounds a week. April 29th is my bandiversary. That would put me at a 60 pound weightloss in 1 year. I really wanted to be under 300 but I know now that’s unrealistic because of the problems I had. So im keeping it real. Its time to buckle down, stay on track with my eating, and find some workouts that I can stick with. I actually found out today I can do jumping jacks. It sounds stupid but I didn’t realize I could do them. I remember trying before and I could do like 3 or 4 before I felt like I was going to die. I was able to push out 20 this morning no problem. Also, as the weather gets better I will get back outside walking. I bought a treadmill but its just not the same. Once I get my walking routine back going at least I will have the treadmill for a rainy day.

With all that said, im asking for everyones support as I try to make this 6 week weightloss goal! I know I can do it! And with everyones encouragement, it will be that much easier.